Those who know me well know that when I get an idea stuck in my head I become boundless and determined to see it through. Stubborn. Strong-Willed. Passionate. Obsessed. It has changed names throughout my life, but my focus and drive has yet to waiver to this day.
For years I have struggled with the highs and lows that come with the fierce nature of my descends into an idea. It begins with a seemingly good idea. A stroke of creative forces washes over me; bringing with it energy so vast it can barely be contained. I am swept forward deeper and deeper into the idea. I am whole. I am alive. But being wholly alive comes with a price. My idea— my life force— is left fully exposed to the elements. And the elements can be harsh… even with proper protection.
I like to imagine that if I was to sit down for tea with Dr. Brene Brown (okay, yes, this is a common reverie of mine) she would say: “Oh Michelle honey, you will be just fine. You are just comfortable leaning into your vulnerability. And this is why you dare so greatly”.
In her book Daring Greatly (2012) Dr. Brown writes
“Vulnerability is the birthplace of love, belonging, joy, courage, empathy, and creativity. It is the source of hope, empathy, accountability, and authenticity. If we want greater clarity in our purpose and deeper and more meaningful spiritual lives, vulnerability is the path.” (pp34)
Thanks to Dr. Brown’s research I recently had a revelation akin to that moment you finally remember the name of that familiar face in the grocery store— Process! Yes, this is my process.
Since becoming aware of my process (and becoming nicely acquainted with all of its quirks), I have found myself beginning to engage with my process more whole-heartedly. It has become a friendly face that I greet with open-arms when that next great idea washes over me.
A little Note...
I truly loved this book, and would recommend it to any woman who identifies with my process and heart-centered mission to live large with purpose and courage. Here is a link to purchase this book on Amazon
Brown, B. (2012): Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent, and Lead. New York City, NY: Gotham